WHY?

I'm so mad at myself today that weight/body image/fat is such an issue with me! Why? I am intelligent, vivacious, loved....why do I care/worry/obsess so much about it????

I guess maybe because I've been there. I know how good it feels. How much better I feel physically, mentally, emotionally. I've tasted it.

And again....I feel like this isn't me. Or the best me. I admit: I feel embarrassed by how I look. I feel like I want everyone to know I can look better.

How do other women who aren't 'thin' not feel this way? Why can't I just enjoy life without my mind constantly rewinding to this part of the tape????!!!

I'm tired.